Ferget about everything I said in my last journal, that crap no longer matters...

Alot of stuff has been going on in my RL some of it good, some of it bad, but the bad heavily outweights the good, so I have been putting this journal off...but here we go...

One good thing to happen was that my Manga University Home Study Course work has finally come back to me after being critiqued by one of the University Teachers, and I was surprised by what was said, I'll probably upload the picture and the comments soon...

Also I showed my GP(**General practitioner**) my drawings for the first time ever, which is suprising becouse shes been my regular docter for over 10 years...she seemed to like them and suggested that the building be decorated by some of my drawings, it's a new building so it is kinda plain looking at the moment. I offered to draw some special health related material to put up, with a humourous tone, and it was agreed. Technically my first ever job. I was gonna upload any finished work if possible...

**Note: A General practitioner is like a docter that you can see for minor things here in the UK. Also known as a GP.

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However the bad stuff take a more serious tone, and it was really bad timing too, since it's Christmas time and if you celebrate it of not, I like to think everyone loves to spend time with their family during this time of year.
I have a Cousin(David) who is a successful cartoonist and has been on TV a couple of times, as well as apparently being offered a job by Marvel. I like to think of him as my rival, although I'd never say that to his face, he's way more superior in drawing skill compared to me. I went to his wedding last year when our car got stuck on a flooded road...
Anyway, some drunken fool behind the wheel of a car ran over his foot. It seems this guy was trying to park into his driveway while David(my cousin) was walking on the path, he saw the guy trying to get into his driveway so he stopped and waited, a reasonable thing to do I believe. However, it sounded like David stopped in front of or really close to the driveway this clown was aiming for, so he shouts something unpleasant and just drives in, from the sound of it. That's as much as I was told, his injuries weren't serious and the drunk guy was arrested. Annoyingly we would hear later that this guy died, so no real punishment for him....Can anyone guess what he died of?
If you said Alchohol Poisoning, your a winner!
Still....on the plus side, one less arse in the world...

But while one cousin has been in an unpleasant incident, another has passed away. I feel guilty that I didn't know him very well, but if I did, his passing would've hit me much harder then it did. He did come round to our house to help my dad with some jobs, which makes me think he was a decent chap, I guess that will have to do.
I don't know what took his life, but I do know he was in his 30s and wasn't suffering from any terminal illness, it's just one of those things I suppose...but in his 30s?? it still seems too young to me, it's a real shame.

Last up is possibly the worst from my perspective as it involves my oldest brother, someone I've grown up with, played with and laughed with.
First here's a quick brief look at my siblings:
Youngest Son: Daniel (Me)
Middle Son: Simon
Oldest Son: Michael
Older Sister: Kelly
The Brother in question is Michael, and life has been cruel to him, he has suffered many unpleasant illnesses, including 2 collapsed Lungs,(both lungs at differant times...) and Emphysema, a condition associated with smoking, yet he's never done it, as well as a bunch of problems during birth and childhood, that I don't known the details of, some things that I shouldn't share with others and even a cancer scare, which was the most recent, although I don't recall hearing how that turned out....but what happened to him only some days ago has nothing to do with all of this...
To put it bluntly, he was beaten, attacked, assaulted!! Keeping in mind everything I just said about his health and note that after all these problems he would randomly get pains in his chest.
Now I ask you this, does someone with all this medical background have the capability to defend himself?
Anyone with two braincells to rub together should know what my answer would be.
There is many things about this incident that p*** me off, the first one obviously being that my brother was attacked, the seconed one is the fact that it happened in daylight with many witnesses, and what do these people do while a b@$%@?d is assaulting my brother? Nothing....they do nothing but stare and freakout, and that p***** me off even more!! If we all can't look after each other, then we are doomed as a species. If you see a person on fire in the street, would you try to help put him out?

Well it's getting late so I better start closing up....

Why was he beaten up? Well it sounds like he got into a tiny argument with some girl on the internet, what was most perfetic about it was the argument was about responding to a text. So this girl probably tells her ex-boyfriend a pack of lies which makes him attack my bro, who happens to be an ex-friend of his strangly, but finally someone helped my brother after the attack who is also an old friend of his.
Note: The guy that attacked my brother, turned himself into the police.

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Well time to end, I'm not sure what to do anymore....technically the internet helped hospitalise my brother and my opinions on the Human race has reached an all time low, I'm not sure what the future holds, I truly believe I am no longer suicidal, but deep down I feel something is wrong, I can't hide from me true feelings, I wish I could.

But just in case this is my last journal ever, I want to say somethings.
I want to thank you all for your kindness over the years of my membership here. Friends, Watchers and random passerbys, I've been lucky not to meet anyone unpleasant over my time on the web, and I have you guys to thank, I seriously want to thank my friends most of all for talking to me and listening, and for just being nice.
I also want to apologise for not being able to finish those request, I feel really guilty but I just don't think I'll be able to do them after all that has happened, I'm so sorry.

Thank you for your time.